THe MaN WiTH THe PeRSPeX SKiN

About disconnecting with the world to the point where you barely feel anything at all... My attempt at writing a song with the melancholia and sprawl of a Porcupine Tree tune...

iNTRo 1:

Find it hard to focus on the real...
Need to find a way to grow and heal...
Nothing but the vaguest deja vu...
When your stalking sadly from the room

(Ever get the feeling you've gone see through?)

(Ever get the feeling you've gone see through?)

(Is that the price we pay for apathy?)

VeRSe 1:

Sometimes I sit and watch the sea
Wondering if its just a giant TV
Come to swallow up our heads
While we lie and drown inside our beds

BRiDGe:

I'm desentized can't hear you shouting no it's all just washing by intead
And doesn't your face turn such a lovely shade of red?
I can't focus on any feelings too much TV sapped my thoughts all out my head
Now your leaving me and I feel nothing...

CHoRuS:

You can see through me like perspex divides
See the vacancy of me all naked inside
Yes I'd like to say that I was surprised
But if I did you'd know that that was a lie

You can see through me like I'm not all there
See the vacancy so plainly so there
Yes I'd like to say I fell into despair
But if I did you'd know that that lie was bare

iNTRo 2:

(Ever get the feeling you've gone see through?)

(Ever get the feeling you've gone see through?)

(Perspex skin and glass for blood)

VeRSe 2:

And in the morning when I wake and you're smell is gone
I can't quite remember why it should feel wrong
Distorted through a haze of V's and Mogadon
Repeat to fade until I can't be moved to sing along

Yeah maybe baby I would care that your not there
If there was something meaningful inside my head
Instead of static, white noise, and dead air
But...

CHoRuS 3:

CHoRuS 2:

You can look right through like perspex divides
To the nothingness that coats my insides
There's a black void that was once the heart of me
Move along now please there's nothing here to see

CoDa:

Ever get the feeling you've gone see through?
Is that the price of chemical apathy?
Ever get the feeling you've gone see through?
A perspex man I am you see.

LiFeLeSS

about being betrayed by somebody you loved...

VeRSe 1:

Rent and spent and gutted
Rotten hollow to the core
You think you fucking know me
But I don't live here anymore
Rent and spent and gutted
Bash my face in just to feel
This world is walking wounded and its losing its appeal

BRiDGe:

You made me this way...
...I hope you're happy now

CHoRuS:

You were always fucking empty
I just never really saw
Picking at the stitches til my head was red and raw
You were always fucking lifeless
Well - I guess I always knew
Now the only thing that I hate more than me, my dear, is you

VeRSe 2:

Shattered, battered, spattered
Martyred darkly at the heart
This earth detests my presence
How it pinions me apart
Shattered, battered, spattered
In the filth the shame will grow
This world is walking wounded in a sick and vicious show

BRiDGe

CHoRuS

CoDa:

Face just like an angel
But your heart's a fucking whore
Take your empty promises
I don't want them anymore

10,000 MiLeS DeeP

about the breakdown of communication between two people... wanting to say everything but knowing you can't say anything and so just growing apart.

VeRSe 1:

I wake and taste the film of blood
Trapped between my teeth
My skin - so fucking perfect -
Hides the fractures underneath
The fuses in my head
Rewired all to blow
Sometimes its so much better
So much better not to know

BRiDGe:

I tried so hard to hold on
But the apathy - it grew
I tried hard not to break this, but,
I wound up breaking me and you

CHoRuS:

Still reaching and groping for the prize
You know that when you try to speak
There's nothing in my eyes

Still seeking some glorious new day
You know that when I try to speak
There's nothing left to say

VeRSe 2:

We used to be so perfect
But it greyed and faded out
We used to have such valid things
To dream and laugh about
Now there's a fissure cut between us
And its grown ten thousand miles deep
Severed from each other we're
Awake but still asleep

BRiDGe

CHoRuS [x2]

thE HeRD

a rant. Written after I was attacked, at work, over somebody elses debts that I had nothing to do with...

You faceless pricks
You make me sick
A herd of bland and vacant smiles
Homogenized and plastic
You're all so fucking vile

Thinking with your fists and tiny dicks
What's the fucking point?
One day you'll wind up dead without a cause
A copyblot on history
So what's the fucking point?

Kill yourself and save us the hassle

CoNFoRM, CoNSuMe, oBeY

about the way the people in charge want us to be... i.e. fucking sheep. The line 'you are free to do what we tell you to do' is robbed from Bill Hicks (RIP)

VeRSe:

CONFORM
Look like everybody else
Think like everybody else
Talk like everybody else
Act like everybody else
CONSUME
Buy this and that and those and these
Line my pockets with your souls
Buy my fucking products
Try to fill the gaping holes
That we've drilled into your psyches
Just to keep you all in line
Buy my fucking products...
Waste your fucking time
OBEY
You are free to do what we tell you to do

CoDa:

Conform, consume, obey
You are free to do what we tell you to do

LoST CoSMoNauTS

about alienation; I wanted a single couplet that would perfectly sum up how I see the world and our roles in it as ordinary members of society. My intention is to sample this and then manipulate the sound to make it into various synthetic 'instruments', thus producing a piece created solely from one simple phrase...

We are all just spacemen
And there's no air left to breathe

aVaTaR

about feeling like the only thing you know how to do anymore is hate, and coming to the conclusion that that is what you were born to do...

VeRSe:

I was born to ruin
Spawned to break and tear away
A sickened little fancy...
A Jesus of decay
I am here to hate you
A lie to scar your soul
There's a person standing here, you see,
But he's really just a hole

BRiDGe 1:

Now the dreams behind my forehead
Are the snake-eyes on the dice
I was born to ruin
Just a soul at discount price

VeRSe 2:

I was born to ruin
And to ruin you will fall
Succumb to cursed numbness
When there's nothing left at all
I am here to hate you
On your hatred do I feed
There's a person standing here, you see,
But all he does is bleed

BRiDGe 2:

Now the dreams behind my forehead
Are the maggots in my eyes
I was born to ruin
As an avatar of lies

CoDa:

Your world means nothing to me
This world means nothing to me

[repeat to end]

CoMa PoeM

about falling for somebody who doesn't really exist... people who wear masks so convincing that you believe they care when really they just take and take and never give anything back...

VeRSe:

I lie awake at night
And watch the ceiling falling in
Trying to remember
How it felt - at last - to win

Trying to remember
But the pieces they don't fit
Smashed and fucking broken
And drowning in this shit

BRiDGe:

(Well maybe problems do have solutions...
But I'm stuck on fucking pause with you)

CoDa:

And you're laughing
And you're laughing
Is the laughing in my head?
Now I'm falling slowly backward
Into everything you said
[x2]

And you're laughing
And you're laughing...

(Who are you today?)

CaRouSeL

an old one this, from the days of DriveBySuicide...

VeRSe 1:

Round, round, round we go
Down, down, down we go
No, no, nobody knows
How far we have to go

CHoRuS:

Carousel, carousel
Spin me softly down to hell
Carousel, carousel
Maybe its just as well

VeRSe 2:

Rock, rock, rock to sleep
Pray, pray cause prayer is cheap
Fool, fool the futures bleak
Low, low, alone I weep

CHoRuS

CHoRuS 2:

Carousel, Carousel
Rock me softly off to hell
Carousel, Carousel
Turn me in and out as well

CHoRuS To eND

LoST LiKe TeaRS iN RaiN

dedicated to 'the one that got away'...

Remember the night I lay with you
Between the sheets we kissed
And everything was distant
We were complete

Nothing mattered, only you,
Nothing mattered then
For one refracted instant
I was at peace

And I would keep that moment
I would taste it on my tongue
Forever and a day
But such things pass too quickly into darkness
Dull and fade
Forgotten and lost...
Like tears...
In rain...